My sweet boy turned 6 months this past Monday (sniff). I wanted to write a post to sum up my first 6 months with a baby but there are so many different directions I could go, I was having a hard time narrowing it down. So, I’ve decided to sum up my first 6 months as a mom in 6 words (well, not entirely… I will be adding commentary, of course!).
- Tiring – Becoming a mom is hands down the best thing I’ve ever done but it is also the most tiring thing I’ve ever done. And I’ve done some pretty tiring things! I used to run children’s summer camps, I would hop from one camp to the next with little to no reprieve. On average, I slept 4-5 hours each night during camp and sometimes I would be awoken in the middle of the night to tend to a camper or a cabin full of campers. During the day, I went from one activity to the next, one amazing chapel service to the next and sometimes even one issue to the next. It was wonderfully exhausting. I think if I had to compare the kind of tired you feel at the beginning of motherhood, I would say it’s a lot like summer camp. Except it goes on for months. And it’s even more wonderfully exhausting.
- Lonely – When I think of the different words that describe the beginning months of motherhood, I would say that all of them are things that my friends and family told me about. I may not have fully understood but I was aware that I would be tired, among other things. However, no one told me that it can be lonely. I’m a single mom so I suppose I could “blame” the lonely feelings on that but I’m pretty sure it’s not the lack of a partner (though, it does bring it’s own challenges) that makes me feel lonely at times. I think there’s a lot of different factors. For instance, for the first few weeks many moms have people around basically 24/7. Then, that’s suddenly gone. Everyone goes back to their regular routines and your only companion doesn’t offer much feedback. Whether you’re a married mom with a partner around at night to help or a single mom with no one at night to help there comes a time when you are suddenly alone. It’s not always lonely, but it certainly can be.
- Comical – Yes, having a baby is tiring and it can be lonely but it is also ridiculously hilarious. Maybe it’s the sleep deprivation, I don’t know, but I have laughed myself to tears over baby blowouts and regurgitation more times than I can count. There are so many funny moments. Like spending way too long trying to work those “easy” baby gadgets, dropping to the floor when the baby starts to stir so he doesn’t see you, then slowly crawling out of the room, jumping out of the shower with soapy hair because you thought you heard the baby cry only to find out it was the neighbor’s cat and then being too afraid to hop back in because you just know the baby will wake as soon as you turn on the water.
- Fun – I knew I would love motherhood. Ever since I was a little girl, I felt that being a mom was what I was made to do. I didn’t know, however, that it would be this much fun. There are so many enjoyable aspects – shopping for baby stuff, baby photo shoots, baby laughs (the absolute best), watching my friends and family dote over my son, baby kisses (actually, maybe these are the best), watching him grow and discover new things… being a mom is really fun. I could never describe in words how much joy being a mom has brought me.
- Magical – I thought about saying the first few months of motherhood is miraculous (it most definitely is) but I think magical covers the awe and wonder while also bringing a warmth to the soul. That is exactly what motherhood has been for me – awesome, wondrous, and absolutely heart warming. I will never forget the feeling of my seconds old baby boy rubbing his face against mine, knowing that I was his and he was mine. Or the way he knew to start nursing within minutes. Or the way he rubs his little hands all over my face while he sleeps, making sure I’m there. Or how he lights up at the sound of my voice. It’s truly magical.
- Fast – These first 6 months have gone fast. Really fast. Too fast. There are many things that I look forward to in the future as Malachi grows but I make it a point not to say the words “I can’t wait until…” because, really, I can. He will be walking and talking, running and off to school before I know it. So, I do my best to stay in the moment and treasure every second.
What words would you use to describe motherhood (at any stage)?